When Will I See You Again

The journey has been very tough and long as I continue to struggle with recovery. However I have surrendered to fate with no regrets. I was born into a privileged family in Thailand and have lived a very good life that I treasure till today. The mental pain is just temporary when one measures the 21 years of happiness being together. 

My mental health issues have been a big challenge for me daily. 

Cancer + Divorce = Depression. 

There is no remedy or medications for this except my own strengths and willpower to fight on. 

Life is just a journey for all of us. It comes with happiness, sadness, pain and sickness therefore acceptance is a choice. I believe I will see light at the end of the tunnel again. 

I am just like a flower. Someday I will wither and fade away, for nothing is permanent in life. 

Thank you very much for always being around to cheer me up till today. 

❤️❤️❤️❤️

Selamat Hari Raya at Hospital

Today is the first day of Hari Raya and I have been admitted to hospital since Monday. It was just my usual next appointment for the new irinotecan chemo treatment on Monday when my oncologist felt that I have lost too much weight and was too frail for the next injection. This stronger irinotecan chemo seems to have worked well and brought my tumour markers down by hundreds. I have finally lost almost all the hair on my head too. So I just checked into the ward fully unexpected and have been given liquid food IV 24/7 as my weight has dropped to a dangerous 58kgs! So far I have been attended to by the oncologist, gastroenterologist and a dietician.

I hope to be discharged by tomorrow or latest Friday. 

Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir Batin. 

*****

Blog Under Construction

Life has been toughest as I am still struggling with recovery for over 2 years now since my colorectal surgery and grapple with my mental health issues. I am coping with the new chemotherapy of the stronger irinotecan treatment which causes me daily diarrhea and hair loss. Even Hercules could give up in such toughest battles but I am still smiling and meeting customers looking like a scare crow suffering from anorexia. That's me!