Wednesday, April 17, 2024

When Will I See You Again

The journey has been very tough and long as I continue to struggle with recovery. However I have surrendered to fate with no regrets. I was born into a privileged family in Thailand and have lived a very good life that I treasure till today. The mental pain is just temporary when one measures the 21 years of happiness being together. 





My mental health issues have been a big challenge for me daily. 
Cancer + Divorce = Depression. 
There is no remedy or medications for this except my own strengths and willpower to fight on. 





Life is just a journey for all of us. It comes with happiness, sadness, pain and sickness therefore acceptance is a choice. I believe I will see light at the end of the tunnel again. 




I am just like a flower. Someday I will wither and fade away, for nothing is permanent in life. 

Thank you very much for always being around to cheer me up till today. 


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27 comments:

  1. Hi ... I am one of the silent reader ... wish you speedy recovery and stay happy ๐Ÿคž๐Ÿคž

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  2. You are not alone

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    1. ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™ You are here so I am not alone. Thank you very much.

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  3. What you wrote is indeed and very true...i lost all my savings for working 20 yrs and accumulated debts of RM2.80 million, due to my own greed and stupidity...
    We have to accept and move on...
    Everyone path and challenges in life is different...
    I can see you have overcome it, otherwise you wont be able to share out...do take care...

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    1. ๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ˜ข Wow!!! You have lost so much money. I could imagine the big stress you went through. I have gained, lost, recovered, lost and gained money over the years. I have learnt a lesson too.

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    2. Ya, it will takes me 10 yrs to repay back...i am lucky to have my family to pay on behalf and allow me to pay them back mthly ...now i am a Very Stingy person...hahaha...even 10 cent also i will count

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    3. It's good to be very stingy now after what has happened.

      Some people never learnt anything. I have a friend who has gone missing. He was a hard core gambler at Genting and works as a VP in a bank. Owed loan sharks so much until bank's branch got harassed and threatened. He had to resign and hiding but still gambling.

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    4. ya, i cannot gone for hiding and leave the trouble for my family...mine was a scam case...anyway, i have overcome that, re-build my relationship with family, get a Divorce and just keep on working for now...

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    5. ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘ I wish I could meet you and hear your stories. You have suffered more than me!! Your family is wealthy and could help you out of troubles.

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    6. hahaha...your life is more interesting...i was reading those ghost stories, travel watnot from yours...really amazing...
      i just wanna encourage you ...i am Buddhist too...
      we will survived...

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    7. Thank you for reading my posts and giving me the priceless encouragement when I need it most. ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™

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  4. Thank you Philip. ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜

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  5. A cycle of life... we come and will go regardless how old we are... TM, I don't know what to say, just be here each day till our Lord calls us home... meanwhile, I wish you well and strong physically, emotionally and spiritually... God Bless!

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    1. ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ Thank you very much for your kind words Claire. I don't wait for God to call me home but as a Buddhist, I will go when my karma has expired itself laaaaa. ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ

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  6. TM, I hope to see you soon. Between mummy duties, daddy visits, being a slave to my cats, managing my job etc I had to postpone my plans many times. So I let you rest and regain your strength and be in better health before I kacau you to come to The Starling.

    You are strong minded and in spite of you condition, your humor is still very much intact. All will be well again. You are in my daily prayers.

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    1. Take your time as you are too occupied with important responsibilities especially caring for both your parents and business. Thank you very much for your kind wishes and prayers always ❤️❤️❤️

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  7. Get well soon.
    I want to ask where the previous vlogs are. Will they come back again?

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    1. Thank you very much for your kind wishes. I have permanently deleted the old posts as I don't want to keep the memories. In coming days, I might delete more old posts.

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  8. No words could describe how my feelings have been until I had no desire to live anymore. I blame no one except myself for everything. I will move on and put the pasts behind be it good or bad in order to have fresh start.
    You have sharp eyes to spot my scarecrow pic in the Grid of Photos ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ I dare not even look too long in the mirror.

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    1. Oops, my comment hilang already! >.<

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    2. This was your comments. My blog is spooky at times ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚


      Your post title is a song that's so sad, moving and heart wrenching...and one can relate that to your current predicament. I can understand your pain when I read the first paragraph. You have accepted everything that has befallen you with grace and I believe too that you can overcome it with your strength and willpower. Like you said, there will be light at the end of the tunnel...again.

      Your toughest journey was during the years of the pandemic and I can understand why you would want to remove those posts from your blog and start anew....a fresh start = a new journey. P/S: You mentioned about your weight in your previous post but I couldn't imagine it until I saw one of the photos in your photo grid. Please follow the advice of your nutritionist and we want to see you pack on the pounds again. We're all praying for your well-being. Take care.

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  9. TM - thanks for updating the blog . Take care . Amitofo

    Norick

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    1. ❤️❤️❤️๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™ Thank you Norick.

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    1. ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™ Thank you very much Ezvina

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  11. ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™ Thank you very much for your kind wishes. It is very tough and I am going nuts.

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